Hiding

There's nowhere to hide here.  I just want to escape for a little while, but there really isn't anywhere to go where I can just get away from life without feeling guilty about it.  I have so much to do, and it's frustrating the hell out of me that I have to rely on other people who aren't coming through for so much of it.  I can't force people to be where I need them when I need them, nor can I always get them to do what I want when they finally show up.  I need something to rely on, and I haven't found it yet.  I'm drawing blanks on all of my ideas, and quite frankly, I don't feel like trying anymore.